Saturday, May 17, 2008

"The Wall"

Have you every seen "The Wall"? It's in Washington, D.C.

My deputy husband was killed May 1983; I joined C.O.P.S. (Concerns Of Police Survivors) in January 1986; went to D.C. to a C.O.P.S. get-together with a bunch of other law enforcement widows, for a week, in May 1986 {the get-together had classes on how to cope with our loss}; on one of those days, we ladies took a little walk to see "The Wall"; and.....I couldn't.

I froze when I saw the dark wall.

I could not read any of the names but I could see lighter areas on "The Wall" that represented letters of the alphabet. I'm sure there were numbers on it, too.

All I did was cry. Not only did I cry......I was sobbing. And deeply. I couldn't stop.

I went back to my motel room and stayed there until we left for home. I didn't even get to attend any of the seminars that they said would teach me how to cope. It didn't even seem so important after I saw "The Wall".

It's also "National Peace Officer's Memorial Week". I fly a blue ribbon for C.O.P.S. My heart is sad and full - - all at once.


  1. Hugs to you. Thanks for sharing your pride and your pain.

  2. What a great tribute to both your husband and soldiers! You are living and caring and making the world a better place because of you pain and courage. Many hugs to you, my friend.

  3. I am so sorry that you lost your brave soulmate. 38 prs of socks??!!You are incredibly prolific!

  4. I'm sorry to hear about your loss and I thank you for sharing.

    I can't even knit one pair of socks!

  5. I've seen the wall. It is, indeed, a very emotional experience.


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